Brrrrrr Brrrrrr! My mobile vibrates signaling the incoming of a message. I was busy doing my lab practical at that time. Accidently my friend who was holding the phone clicks on the ‘Show Message’ button. He quietly hands me over the phone but with a naughty giggle. I look at him annoyingly. I have a look at the message. Guess what it reads ? The three golden words- “ I Love You.” send me into a shock.
The story begins about an year back. Social Networking sites were doing what they are really good at. I send her scrap on her orkut account. And then the chain reaction starts. She replies, then I reply leading to some counter replies and on and on and on, an unending loop of scraps. Then sharing of phone numbers takes place and the phone bill starts sky rocketing. The game of giving each other the maximum number of missed call starts. Cupid strikes me with an arrow and I am all gaga over this bubbly girl. Then one day the message comes- “I love you.” Guess what my reply is- “ Did you really send this message to me or were sending to it to someone else and by mistake clicked on my number.” She replies “You are really a dumb fellow.” God! I felt like I was on top of the world.
But now it is not the same with her anymore. We never talk as we used to. Things have changed. Its really very strange. Yesterday I received a call. It can be tagged as the worst call of my life till date. This is what she said- “I have been thinking about our relationship for the past few days and I am really confused. I know I have behaving weirdly for some days, but there is nothing I can do about it. Today I have a confession to make. Please listen me through it. I don’t love you. I never had any of those feelings for you. I know I had sent you that message but I was only reflecting the love that you showered on me. Those were your feelings only, not mine. Can we be just special friends. Special friends for life. This is only I ask for. I am sorry………”
It was life the whole world had gone upside down. Everything had turned topsy turvy. I am very angry with her. How could she play with my feelings! You are everything to me. You are my life. I really love you. I don’t want to lose you. Understand my feelings, my love. If I were to pick up a star for every moment of happiness you have given me, I swear to God, all the stars would be in my palm.
But you have really broken my heart. Now every time I look into a mirror, it reminds me of you and you reflecting love. Yes I love you. I love you more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to you forever. But I know it’s not for the best. So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I’ve got to let you go so you can know just how much I love you. Maybe if I’m lucky, you’ll come back, but if not, I hope can make it through this.
As a parting message I just have to tell you-
Never say ‘I love you’ if you don’t care.
Never talk about feelings if they’re not there.
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.
A break up is like a broken mirror.
It is better to leave it broken than
hurt yourself trying to fix it.
I don’t know what to do now that we’re apart;
I don’t know how to live without the other half of me not here.
Adieu, My Dear
